Well I have had a rather enjoyable week so far.

To start with, on Sunday I went and visited a friend, Yvette. She’s a very pretty girl and a lot of fun to be around. She and I had met at Dance Central (a place to go and dance, we met on the Swing Dancing night). Anyway, she later on asked me to go to her Homecoming dance, and I agreed. What a blast that was – so many people and so much dancing…fun fun fun :-) I was at her house for about 3 hours and we just talked and talked – she has the most decorated room I’ve ever seen. There’s magazine clippings everywhere, and poetry, and drawings she did. Garsh! We’re have plans to do something this Sunday, but we haven’t decided on what yet – but I don’t really care.

Also this week Javier took me to 24Hour Fitness where I severely damaged myself. Woah – I am soooo out of shape – after about 50 crunchies I nearly threw up. I’m glad I am getting back into Judo this coming semester – I desperately need it. After that joyful experience we went and saw “Out Cold”. A funny movie, but a lot of it would be considered immature foolery – but I enjoyed it, especially the out-takes at the end.

Anywho, I look forward to the rest of this week – oh yeah, Tracey came back (you don’t know her, but she’s cool) and hopefully she, Javier, and I (maybe others) will go see a movie next week. That would be awesome.

I recently receieved an email stating that this journal wasn’t “Spicy” enough to be considered a journal and that I shouldn’t be going on about work logs – so, as a firey reply, I am just going to start delving out secrets here because, well, that’s what you do with a journal – right?

This weekend my mother left town. She and I are the only people who live here on the weekend – this of course then left me here alone. Being the 18 yearold that I am, i decided it was party time.

After gathering some people and telling others about it, the first guest arrives. (From here out, names will not be said because that would be just TOO revealing). Guest1 has brought with him a bottle of Raspberry Vodka. Well I have never drank (a sip for tasting, but that was it cause it was nasty) and I don’t ever intend on it.

Now, my mother had told me “No Drinking” while she was gone cause she didn’t want to miss out – well I knew that this rule was already out the window because (what i didn’t know at this point) was that all of my friends drink; most very very heavily.

Anyway, guest1 also brought Jello mix, and started to prepare Jello Shooters (basically Jello with vodka). Anyway, I hoped that this would tide them all over and that’s all that would occur as far as drinking goes. Shortly after the Jello is set and is going, guest2 arrives and we talk and stuff and she’s made aware of the shooters. No big deal for her.

Anyway, more stuff happens and the night progresses (at one point a very “no drinking at all” person comes and well all have to tone down to keep from spilling about the jello) and it ends up being about 6 people at my house at 12-1 ish. So we are all laughing and having fun, and then people start taking off clothing and more drink (what was left from making the jello shots) is drank. At this point I am feeling very very uncomfortable, so I put my shirt back on and go downstairs (they were all upstairs) to just get away. By this point every one had been drinking – some more than others. Only one of the guests seemed to be able to “hold their liquor” and the rest were . . . well let’s just leave it at they shouldn’t be drinking.

Finally people get tired, some movies are watched people leave and at about 4AM me and the two remaining guests fall asleep in my bed. Wake up at about 11am and I take them home.

And that is the story of my first party with alcohol and girls – and I am never doing it again. Specifically the drinking part. I hated it – I don’t like alcohol at all – the taste, nor what it does to you. I used to think “to each their own” then after dealing with a suicidal-drunken friend i concluded, “Some people can handle it, some cant.” Now i find that, “Drinking is one of the stupidest things I can think of doing to have a good time.” Some reasons:

1. It makes you forget things – why would you want that? If I have a great time (either with friends or intimately) I am GOING to remember it! I don’t want to forget it!
2. It takes away inhibitions – at random. What I mean is this. Most people drink to relax – this relaxation come from the alcohol having a chemical effect on their body AND MIND. The mind part is the important one. It allows people to forget about inhibitions pre-ordained in themselves. IE – certain people, unless drunk, would never talk to the pretty woman at the bar because they fear they aren’t good enough. That fear is taken away with alcohol. What’s bad about that you ask? Simple, it’s not just THAT fear that goes. It’s ALL YOUR FEARS or RANDOM ones. So while you can now talk to that beautiful woman, you may also now be willing to take some incredibly horrible drug, or get a tatto you don’t really want or some other stupid thing. I find that I can get rid of my inhibitions just by wanting them to go away. And that’s just mental power – and it’s very very selective so that’s a good thing.
3. It messes with your ability to do anything right. When I dealt with that suicidal-drunken person one time, they couldn’t walk, talk, or think straight. I am NOT willing to put myself there. Think about it, your fears of doing something dangerous are now gone, but you can’t competently perform whatever it is because you’re drunk. How’s that gonna do any good?

That was this weekends lesson learned the hard way – and probably the best way.

Wow – what a day. I get up at about 8, get dressed, eat and head off to work. It was a mad house there! I have to keep a work log of everything I do and how long I did it for (from what time to what time) and todays work log was nearly a page long! Usually it’s only about 10 items!!!

It’s really because I’ve been gone for two days and my boss had been gone for 3 days, so things had kinda piled up. Well that was exciting, and crazy, and frustrating all rolled into one!

Then I have to leave at 3:30 to make a 4:00 appointment to have my car fixed HOWEVER, cause it was so damn crazy, I didn’t leave till 4:00, so I was late for my appointment, ugh! Anyway,I got there, they checked my car out, and came back to tell me that the repairs were going to cost $1,000!! AHHH!!! hehehe, no biggie though, I have the extended warranty, so it’s all free – yeah baby!

Anyway after that I came home and went to my classes website project and did the programming for it. That was tedious….Anyway, the day is finally coming to a close – or is it? Javier says he might be able to take me to see the screener for Harry Potter – sweet! Well, that’s all for now.

I am the only one awake.

I’m in Santa Cruz right now visiting my friend, and since it’s 10 in the morning, none of these college people are awake yet. I can’t help it though, I’ve never been one for sleeping in. This trip will probably be over once the herd wakes up because a certain girl we went with has to go home to study for a test – pfft.

Anyway, it’s lots of fun here and the people are very nice and friendly. Now, Amy’s been saying she just loves it sooo much here, and she “has to transfer here”, but I don’t think I’d want to go to this school. I mean, this college doesn’t offer me the job skills I need, and I’m not to excited about all the ups and downs of the hills and such. I’d get used to that, but the first item is what really matters – I can find a college more suited to me.

Don’t get me wrong, I like this place, and I like the people, and I am sure it offers an excellent education – just not for me. This entry is going to be really long because I have nothing else to do right now but write, you know with everyone asleep and all…actually I guess not. After sitting her for the last 5 minutes with nothing to say, I guess it’s a good time to end this entry.

My sunroof is stuck open and it’s pouring rain here.

:(

So i go to the saturn dealer to have them fix it – they can’t fix it, so they come out, give me ducttape and towels and then leave. I have to stand out side in the pouring rain for 15 minutes duct taping my damn sunroof edges to keep the rain out…I’m NOT happy with the Saturn experience right now.

sigh The more and more I hang out with people – specifically Amy – the more I realize how much I want a girlfriend again. Hell, I’d be happy with a girl that would be more than just a friend – as long as she is to my liking. I mean, there are…well I…I guess I am perhaps just too picky about women, but I don’t think I am that picky.

Anywho – moving on to other things in life. Tomorrow (sunday) I head down to UC Santa Cruz to visit a long time friend. I am hoping this trip will raise my spirits above what they are now (course it being 2:30 in the morning doesn’t help much.) g’night all.

Well hey look at that, it only took like 2 pain-stakingly long hours to get this all up and working the way I wanted it to.

I feel really good about the site – for the first time in a long time I really have some content on a site instead of just a bunch of junk to fill up a design.

In fact, I still have content coming in – this is good. :-)

Today I started this web site’s design.

I am doing this site redesign because I want this site to actually serve a purpose. I surf the net and see two kinds of sites: lame sites that have no purpose, no quality, and no nothing – and sites that have purpose, content, quality, and a reason for existing. I want the latter type of site. So I believe that in order to do this, I am going to revert to a REALLY simply design, and actually concentrate on the content of my site.

It will also start to be shapped into many things – a portfolio, my play site, a place for my friends to visit, and maybe even more in the future. For now though, I just need to finish this thing and get it up.